Marathon here I come!

Due to a certain turn of events, my training has taken a completely new look. I am now both an athlete and a coach. Though the training is mostly (basically entirely) inspired by the greatest distance coach in the world, Arthur Lydiard from good old New Zealand! I am immensely excited to begin such an ambitious endeavor of training with a HUGE focus on aerobic work. I think things will work great though, because personally I love that stuff! So tomorrow I return to the roads, but only an easy 8 miles, just the beginning of many, many, many, many, many miles. I'm actually feeling very optimistic about these circumstances, and truly feel I will come out strong after its all said and done. I leave you with none other than a great RI band that everyone should check out, The Low Anthem.

Day by Day

I feel like I'm in some sort of non-progressive existence of shock, regret, and sorrow. I can't fall asleep at night, but somehow I fall asleep during the day with quite ease. I'm taking sometime off from running for a bit to repair my broken body, mind, and spirit. I think it should help me, then I have a long time to train and become as fit as possible. Recently I've been into my good ol' folk music, this guy is the real deal, his name is Joe Pug and I saw him at the Newport Folk Festival this summer, truly amazing. He reminds me in his mannerisms similar to a 1963 Bob Dylan, a uniquely genius songwriter. Its all about the lyrics of life that mean anything at all.

-nick

Friends

My friends are too good to me. I've done nothing but let them down. Why do they still stand by me? Because they are true friends. Something that is incredibly hard to find. I am so grateful for them. But I have completely failed to return any favors of being a good friend. I don't know how to right this wrong. I guess what has happened, has happened, and I can't dwell on this like I did last year, but still it kills me the most to know how badly I've messed up my friends lives. I cannot express the comfort in my heart when one of you came by, and it truly means so much to me that you remain by my side. Thank you. I love you. And at the same time I would equally understand for no one to be empathetic to me, because look what I have done! But to everyone around me, I love you. I will make it through this, and I can't thank you all enough for your counsel and love. This is but an obstacle I must overcome. The hardest part of this is not me but my friends. I have no way I can ever repay you, but I will do everything in my heart to attempt to regain your trust. I still remain at a loss for words, but the word sorry. And I know it hard to accept and don't blame you for not accepting it for sometime, but I know all the friends I have will eventually stick by my side. I love you guys.

-nick



"Be Set Free" by Langhorne Slim
Here's the lyrics, they mean a lot to me:

Whether I'm right,
Or whether I'm wrong,
Time will go by, life it will go on
When the light is on your side
Love reveals itself to thee
Then you can, yes you can,
You can be set free

Every garden can grow
Every mouth can form a smile,
Let yourself go, ease your mind for a while
When you're tired, and you're torn
And humankind seems filled with misery
Then you can, yes you can
You can be set free

I'm not an ordinary man
I don't pretend to be
I'd like to be extraordinary man,
I'd like to know peace
When the lights go out, I'm not lonely
It's the only thing that matters to me
I can, we can
We can be set free
We can know peace
We can be set free

Lying Naked

The night you were filled with Fear
I leaned and whispered in your ear
Those three little words that haunted me
Three words i no longer speak

Never said them to another girl
Because they're so damn powerful
They left me there so powerless
Each night from then we'd undress

Lying naked on your backseat
Windows steaming from the heat
I'd always make you feel so safe
But maybe that was my mistake

Sound mind in a sound body

Ok, new rules: I write everyday, no excuses, topics aren't necessary, neither are emotions, art rules the world i live in, show it, expose it, flaunt it, don't back down, never be ashamed, only cry when you can't help it, smile when your happy, hug the people you love, stop worrying about _______, find a way to run faster, laugh, embrace spontaneity, dream, sleep, walk, sleepwalk while dreaming, if a bunny has sex 1000 times it spontaneously combusts, prove it, nothingness, stream coming to an end, waterfall ahead, danger, fall down to the riverBED below.

Love,
Nick

P.s. don't fight.