Friends

My friends are too good to me. I've done nothing but let them down. Why do they still stand by me? Because they are true friends. Something that is incredibly hard to find. I am so grateful for them. But I have completely failed to return any favors of being a good friend. I don't know how to right this wrong. I guess what has happened, has happened, and I can't dwell on this like I did last year, but still it kills me the most to know how badly I've messed up my friends lives. I cannot express the comfort in my heart when one of you came by, and it truly means so much to me that you remain by my side. Thank you. I love you. And at the same time I would equally understand for no one to be empathetic to me, because look what I have done! But to everyone around me, I love you. I will make it through this, and I can't thank you all enough for your counsel and love. This is but an obstacle I must overcome. The hardest part of this is not me but my friends. I have no way I can ever repay you, but I will do everything in my heart to attempt to regain your trust. I still remain at a loss for words, but the word sorry. And I know it hard to accept and don't blame you for not accepting it for sometime, but I know all the friends I have will eventually stick by my side. I love you guys.

-nick



"Be Set Free" by Langhorne Slim
Here's the lyrics, they mean a lot to me:

Whether I'm right,
Or whether I'm wrong,
Time will go by, life it will go on
When the light is on your side
Love reveals itself to thee
Then you can, yes you can,
You can be set free

Every garden can grow
Every mouth can form a smile,
Let yourself go, ease your mind for a while
When you're tired, and you're torn
And humankind seems filled with misery
Then you can, yes you can
You can be set free

I'm not an ordinary man
I don't pretend to be
I'd like to be extraordinary man,
I'd like to know peace
When the lights go out, I'm not lonely
It's the only thing that matters to me
I can, we can
We can be set free
We can know peace
We can be set free