The Big Prize

You ever find money in your pocket to your complete and pleasant surprise? It's a great fucking feeling right! Well, lately I feel like I've been finding lots of metaphorical money in the pockets of my life. Life has a funny way of going up, up, up for me and then plummeting downwards. :( but lately I've just taken everything as it comes and the surprise dollar bills I've been discovering have been true blessings. I'm huge believer in fate, and I have a theory that a certain night has changed the course of my life forever. And for the better. This night took place at my second home in providence, Lupos Heartbreak Hotel. July 6th, The Flaming Lips blasted pounds of yellow confetti and as I leaped in the air, catching falling pieces, I felt this love in my heart, a happiness, a peace. I realized that in life, it makes no sense to carry burdens or pains, because in reality, we're living each and everyday. Isn't it much nicer to live life with a smile and a view always on the bright side? Wayne Coyne said at the end of the show, something I will never forget: "You all might have come her tonight with some sort of pain, something bothering you, just things not going so well, but that's all gone now, all that pain is gone, and we're all here together, right now. I want you to sing this next song as loud as you can!" The lips then burst into "Do You Realize" and as a line in the song elegantly puts, "the happiness makes you cry". I smiled as a tear rolled down my face. It was truly life changing. Inspiring. Transcendent almost. But the song perfectly captured all my emotions and erupted them into a mess of confetti and sublime happiness. An experience like this only happens a few times in one's life, so it is important to meditate on the meaning, the symbol, the fate behind its power. That night i found an hundred dollar bill in my pocket (which mean's it didn't come from me; fact: I've never possessed an hundred dollar bill), and it was the happiest of surprises. I've been slowly spending it in my life since then, but I feel it will never run out. My love will never run out. So I encourage all of you, to search the pockets of your own life for the big prize, and when you find it, cherish it!

Love,
nick

This song will forever give me goosebumps and make me cry tears of joy in my <3.