Good to be back...

Well it is damn good to be back. Over break I realized its really hard to motivate myself to do anything outside of sitting on my ass and being a bum. So I am glad to return to school, to help me keep on running (instead of just long runs) everyday. It is an unfortunate dive right back into things though, 7 a.m. run, three classes, and afternoon run. It still will be a nice return. I feel rejuvenated, which actually reminds me of a story today. There was this guy, homeless I presume, looked like a nice guy though, he was holding a sign and it read: "In need of HELP" and I thought to myself, "don't we all". But then my mom did a beautiful thing, she stopped, opened her window and handed the man a 5 dollar bill. He smiled and said, "Thank you ma'am", and she said, "we could all use the help these days" and he smiled and nodded. This small encounter took no longer than a couple seconds but it touched me. Sharing and caring is my mother and I admire her for it. I am going to try to live this same way, after all me and my mother are most alike. Well I'm going through a huge Connor Oberst phase so I leave you none other than: (I think he says my last name in the beginning)



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Just like starting over...

This spring break has been well needed and very relaxing. Basically I've been sleeping, eating, running, and hanging with some old friends. Its been perfect. The past couple weeks before break I was on a path for destruction. Now with some rest I've been able to compose my thoughts and emotions, making me much happier. Not to mention my running is going well too! So I decided I needed some change with the mop of hair on my head, so 5" of it ended up on a barber's floor. I like my new haircut and realized after taking a shower how much easier short hair is to manage! Life is good. Well I'm feeling inspired and creative, so time to write some new songs for a possible solo project in the near-future.

K'naan is playing at Lupos April 2nd!!!

Happiest Day of my life this semester!

Today was an historic day in my life. I have made a complete 180 degree turn in happiness. Last night, I was depressed, anxious, sleepless once again, and all around feeling quite shitty about myself. But this evening I received news that I am not on probation this semester and I am able to run outdoor track!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the best news I could ever expected, I almost cried with happiness and shock as I read the e-mail. It is truly a blessing from God! Although I did receive an additional 40 hours of community service I am absolutely thrilled by the fact I can run. This has given me new life for running.

My goals this season are 14:35 for 5k hopefully at Mt. Sac, Big East, hopefully a trip to Penn Relays, and maybe even run a 1500 sometime and try to smash that PB. I cannot wait for this season! This weekend is my last race for indoors this weekend. I'm running the mile. Hopefully I can make the final, but if not I'd love to at least run close to 4:12 and know that I gave it my best. After that, Its time for outdoor (5k) training and I am thrilled!!! My spring break is next week and I am going to make an attempt at my first 100 mile week! It might not be the smartest thing, but I don't think it'll kill me. That that don't kill me only makes me stronger!

Well I look forward to finally getting a good sleep tonight! Tomorrow I'm going to see Brand New play at URI, so I'll leave you with this video, but it is also a dedication to all the people who spoke at take back the night tonight....

So simple in the moonlight

"I don't know what the trouble was that started all of this, the reasons have all run away but the feelings never did."

This was the first sad song I sang at tonight's open mic night. I was nervous as anything performing in front of so many people even though half the face's were my friends (or I like to hope they are my friends). It truly is difficult performing alone in front of people, especially when you've been suffering from anxiety. But anyways, I managed to get through my first song "Lua" by bright eyes and then closed things off with one of my favorite songs ever - "I will follow you into the dark". I made a subtle change in the second chorus, which I don't think many people caught but it made a few people smile.

In the end I enjoyed playing again for people, and even though I'm not the best at it, I look forward to playing again. I've been very sad lately, but I'm trying to look on the bright side of life and I hope things will get better soon.