Long Time Passed

So it has been an awfully long time since I last wrote anything here, but things have been pretty good so far this summer. Unfortunately I haven't gotten to the beach all that much but the three times I did go were awesome. I love the feeling of the sand on my feet and sun on my body, and who the heck doesn't like the salty air of the sea. It reminds me of all the summer days I spent on the beach. Training has been going awesome, I've taken quite the different approach this summer. I have been relaxing a lot more, not being so neurotic about hitting a certain weekly mileage, and in general just taking it a lot easier on my body. The body needs time to recover and so does the mind. I've learned this the hard way, I think every runner has though. Last week I hated running, and this week I'm buzzing about training. Its like a rollercoaster, no other sport is so love/hate. I love it now though, and lets hope I can keep this going into the year! As for the rest of things, I've been having some good times with friends, done some dumb things I'm not very proud of, and still looking forward to some more good times. This weekend is the Newport Folk Festival, I can't wait!!!!!! Looking forward to seeing these guys from providence:

Good to be back...

Well it is damn good to be back. Over break I realized its really hard to motivate myself to do anything outside of sitting on my ass and being a bum. So I am glad to return to school, to help me keep on running (instead of just long runs) everyday. It is an unfortunate dive right back into things though, 7 a.m. run, three classes, and afternoon run. It still will be a nice return. I feel rejuvenated, which actually reminds me of a story today. There was this guy, homeless I presume, looked like a nice guy though, he was holding a sign and it read: "In need of HELP" and I thought to myself, "don't we all". But then my mom did a beautiful thing, she stopped, opened her window and handed the man a 5 dollar bill. He smiled and said, "Thank you ma'am", and she said, "we could all use the help these days" and he smiled and nodded. This small encounter took no longer than a couple seconds but it touched me. Sharing and caring is my mother and I admire her for it. I am going to try to live this same way, after all me and my mother are most alike. Well I'm going through a huge Connor Oberst phase so I leave you none other than: (I think he says my last name in the beginning)



AWESOME VIDEO!!!

Just like starting over...

This spring break has been well needed and very relaxing. Basically I've been sleeping, eating, running, and hanging with some old friends. Its been perfect. The past couple weeks before break I was on a path for destruction. Now with some rest I've been able to compose my thoughts and emotions, making me much happier. Not to mention my running is going well too! So I decided I needed some change with the mop of hair on my head, so 5" of it ended up on a barber's floor. I like my new haircut and realized after taking a shower how much easier short hair is to manage! Life is good. Well I'm feeling inspired and creative, so time to write some new songs for a possible solo project in the near-future.

K'naan is playing at Lupos April 2nd!!!

Happiest Day of my life this semester!

Today was an historic day in my life. I have made a complete 180 degree turn in happiness. Last night, I was depressed, anxious, sleepless once again, and all around feeling quite shitty about myself. But this evening I received news that I am not on probation this semester and I am able to run outdoor track!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the best news I could ever expected, I almost cried with happiness and shock as I read the e-mail. It is truly a blessing from God! Although I did receive an additional 40 hours of community service I am absolutely thrilled by the fact I can run. This has given me new life for running.

My goals this season are 14:35 for 5k hopefully at Mt. Sac, Big East, hopefully a trip to Penn Relays, and maybe even run a 1500 sometime and try to smash that PB. I cannot wait for this season! This weekend is my last race for indoors this weekend. I'm running the mile. Hopefully I can make the final, but if not I'd love to at least run close to 4:12 and know that I gave it my best. After that, Its time for outdoor (5k) training and I am thrilled!!! My spring break is next week and I am going to make an attempt at my first 100 mile week! It might not be the smartest thing, but I don't think it'll kill me. That that don't kill me only makes me stronger!

Well I look forward to finally getting a good sleep tonight! Tomorrow I'm going to see Brand New play at URI, so I'll leave you with this video, but it is also a dedication to all the people who spoke at take back the night tonight....

So simple in the moonlight

"I don't know what the trouble was that started all of this, the reasons have all run away but the feelings never did."

This was the first sad song I sang at tonight's open mic night. I was nervous as anything performing in front of so many people even though half the face's were my friends (or I like to hope they are my friends). It truly is difficult performing alone in front of people, especially when you've been suffering from anxiety. But anyways, I managed to get through my first song "Lua" by bright eyes and then closed things off with one of my favorite songs ever - "I will follow you into the dark". I made a subtle change in the second chorus, which I don't think many people caught but it made a few people smile.

In the end I enjoyed playing again for people, and even though I'm not the best at it, I look forward to playing again. I've been very sad lately, but I'm trying to look on the bright side of life and I hope things will get better soon.

To philosophize is to learn to die

So its been an interesting past weekend. The highlights were of course watching Hayden and David go sub-4, Dom going 7:58, I was pleased with my 4:12 mile (though I know I can go a lot faster), the trip to India Point Park, taking pictures downtown, buying art supplies, getting food poisoning from that damn Indian food, throwing up for 6 hours straight, running 3 miles in the past two day, and to top it all off I am now on disciplinary probation! Well my life has taken some wild turns these past days, during the food poisoning I thought my life was over, and then when I could finally breath again without vomiting I couldn't have been more happy to be alive, but then office of student conduct emailed me and my life returned to that stage where i wished it was over. But as my philosophy professor Costello told us as we studied Nietzsche, theses are the prime years for suffering and all this suffering is only gonna make us better people in the future. So I would give Providence College an A+ when it comes to aiding its student's in their amount of suffering. Way to go PC!!! Well I've written the most sincere and desperate plea for pardon of my probation. If it upholds though, my future suffering at this school might be over, because i can no longer afford it. Running is the greatest sport that centers around dealing with as much pain as possible, but yet I love it. And without it, my life will be more of a mess than it is now, if that is even possible?!?!

Acceptance

I reached acceptance despite not knowing the punishment yet. Well today was much better, I started my day at 6:50 a.m. for a nice morning run with a good Irish lad. So after 5 miles in the beautiful, what I like to call pseudo-spring weather we headed up to our 7:45 a.m. meeting. Which lasted 20 awkwardly silent seconds because one person was missing. The rest of my day was quite enjoyable, short classes, an interview for the sports website/TV show, and then Mass after dinner. It was nice being in church again, I've been away from the church for a while. I don't know why. But I still have faith and lately I've been in a state of merciful prayer. If only some people in this world could forgive like God does. But that's a dream. Today was quite an eventful day as I reflect upon it now (a little past midnight). One final milestone for today was reached with the epic return to the mural. Thats right...the mind is working again, though I must admit it was not much tonight, but for some reason that damn mural just makes me feel alright. Someone once told me it is therapudical and I really believe that person is right. I think I know why I started it, but I'm not sure if now is the right time to say it. But what I can say is that I never feel alone when I drawing in solitude on my wall. Besides how can I with a worm as happy as that!